Embrace uncertainty. Some of the most beautiful chapters in our lives won't have a title until much later. —Bob Goff
I was at Mayo recently and the Neurologist told me that I'm in the early stages of Primary Progressive Aphasia. It's progressive and at some point, along the line, I will not be able to speak.
I've struggling to find words since early April 2019. I needed a PET Scan when I was at Mayo, but I couldn't find the words. So, Rey stepped in and said the words for me. My speech pathologist said that I need a journal when I make phone calls. I write out the things I need to say, and voila, it works. I wish I had it at Mayo that day.
I am powerless against this disease. I can take supplements, but I am still helpless against this disease. It's hard to be powerless.
It's a surrendering, of sorts. You must be willing to give up being in charge of your life. It's an entrusting oneself to the Savior. A relinquishing.
My favorite verse during this season is, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. —2nd Corinthians 12:9
God's grace is sufficient for each new day that comes our way.
It's the friends who can sit silently with me… and not fill in the blanks for me. But sit and listen to me as I complete my sentences. That's my Soul Sister's. My precious friends. You know who you are. I love you to the moon and back. They wait patiently until I find the words. And my friend, LuAnn, who waits patiently when I have trouble with finding words. And listens as I grope in silence.
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. —Henri Nouwen
What a gift. I can't imagine doing this without them. I know they are praying for me too. I have a lot of prayer warriors out there. Thank you to everyone of you!
Those prayers fill me with such peace, as I face this new battle.
I want to leave you with this verse, "May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit." —Philippians 4:23