Only God could say what this new spirit forming in you will be… accept the anxiety of feeling yourself in suspense and incomplete.
—Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose Wisely.
—Karen Kaiser Clark
When the winds of change blow in it can be unsettling. Scary, even.
Especially when the change is dramatic. Like the unexpected loss of a loved one, or the loss of a job, or our health. That kind of change in life upends us. Leaving us with a sense of uncertainty. Insecurity. Upheaval.
No wonder we seem so averse to change.
Although change of any kind can be painful, it can also be a place of growth. A place where our faith stretches. A space that is transformative.
I think one of the reasons why we resist change so much, is that we like to feel safe. Cozy. Comfortable.
I know that is how it’s been lately in my life.
But, that’s not how it always was.
My hubby and I, in our younger days, were adventuresome. We embraced change.
When Rey had the opportunity to play basketball in France we welcomed it with open arms and made the move.
When a church in Colorado Springs needed a Youth Leader, we dove right in and loved every minute of it.
I remember the day we moved to White Bear Lake. I stood on our front stoop and asked God not to let me drive my tent stakes down too deep. I wanted to be willing to pull them up again if God had other plans.
But, then life happened. We rooted ourselves firmly. In the neighbourhood. In our kid’s activities. At church.
Oh, we still took little adventures now and again. I went to Ukraine to speak at a Women’s Conference. Rey went to Tijuana with the Youth that he’s been a part of for 20+ years.
I even went back to school to become a certified Spiritual Director and started my own publishing company.
But, that’s almost a decade ago now.
Then, a year and a half ago we lost our dearest friend to a three-week battle with cancer. It rocked our world. We had always assumed we would grow old together.
Amid our deep grief, I began to sense the Holy Spirit whispering to my heart. Telling me it was time to let go and play it safe no longer. It was time to be stretched. Because life is short.